Hi guys! So it seems that I’ve hardly blogged this month and that’s because I’ve been really busy! First with bringing my ass down here to Liverpool, secondly with enjoying being here in Liverpool! I’m seriously loving it here, and I had an urge to blog, so I thought I’d just stop by and give you all a little update!
First off, I want to thank all of you, Chrisselle.Com received a mind-blowing amount of hits last month with a grand total of 29,000+! I’m so gobsmacked, seriously! You have no idea how much it means to me to be able to have some sort of an influence on people, especially if it’s a possible one.
As for my personal life, I’m happier than I have been in months. Always homesick when I wake up, and when I finally decide to head to bed, but a few hours of feeling homesick for the happiness I’ve been experiencing lately? I’d do it ten times over and then a hundred times more. I know, I know, I seem selfish, but at the end of the day it’s time for me to make me happy.
Happiness; It’s a feeling, right? One that some people have the joy of feeling constantly and one that others can search high and low for. It’s something that can be taken away as quickly as it is given. But more importantly, it’s something that people forget to appreciate. I’m so completely guilty of it myself. I let the bad outweigh the good even though the bad is a rock and the good is a mountain. It’s a human thing to constantly find a flaw in something, for example; I quite like my Twitter avatar, but I hate how odd my hand looks in it, and that’s what I focus on. So, what I’m saying is that maybe it’s time we all rethought things. Feelings that make us anything less than happy should always come second to those of happiness. Did you know that happiness and laughter makes you live longer? No? Well, you do now.
I want every single person reading this to know something. Look around you, how many people are popping up on your screen with a “Hey, how are you?” or blowing your cellphone up with text messages asking how your weekend was, what about that friend you spent a few minutes on the phone to the other day? Or even the last person that you hugged, smiled at or even said hello to. Do you want me to let you in on a little secret? You just made an impact on that person’s life. You shouldn’t care about how big or small that impact is, it’s there and believe it or not, it’s always going to be. I can remember some woman who I never knew or met before in my entire life complimenting how my purple eyeshadow looked good with my natural brown eyes. And do you know that even to this day whenever I apply make-up I think of how lovely it was of that woman to say that?
They say that things happen for a reason, and yes, sadly that can mean the bad things too. But honestly? If the bad didn’t happen we wouldn’t be able to appreciate the good. Do I wish that the bad never, ever, ever had to happen? Of course I do! Do I regret any of the hard times I’ve been through in my life? No. Not at all, because I wouldn’t be the person I am today without the knowledge that things get better.
Now don’t get me wrong, I’m just like every other person out there, I paint on a smile when really all I want to do is curl up in bed and disappear for a few days. But it’s not as simple as that, we have people in our lives that need us just as much as we need them. There’s people that love us, and are willing to help us through hard times.
Look around you, you’re sitting in a warm house, with a working computer, cellphone, even an iPod or maybe an iPad? Whichever one, you’ve got an Internet connection and the ability to connect with the world, use it. Instead of complaining that your mom made you do a chore, or that your school sucks. Why not be grateful for the things you do have in life? A caring family, loving friends, and most importantly the ability to breathe.
Life is hard, trust me I know. So many things have happened in my life that no-one knows, and more than likely never will. I’m just happy to be alive, to have the people I have in my life, and to know what true love feels like. I’m a dreamer, you could say. But trust me, I’m a happy one at that.
Now, I don’t know if this blog makes sense, it probably doesn’t. But not much in life does, you’ve just gotta take out the parts you understand and work on them.
Much love and many thanks for reading!