You Are The One Who Lies Close To Me

So the original plan was to write a new blog every day of November. But, yesterday instead of writing a blog I redone the pages of the site. So if you have a look at the sections to the left of this blog you’ll see some changes in the About and Biography sections, and you’ll notice a brand new section called Networks where you’ll find the links to all my social networks as well as the link for the RSS feed of my blog if you would like it.

The new plan? To try and blog every day of November again! Today I’ve spent all day watching movies and not really doing anything productive apart from making myself happy and taking a day to just be by myself.

I think everyone needs one of those days. Y’know the kind where you wake up at a ridiculous time, stay in your sweats and under the covers and only get out of bed to get food or change the movie? Those days where you just focus on yourself and making your mood improve with some silly movies.

Today it really feels like winter, like Christmas is just around the corner. And it makes me want to do nothing but exactly what I described, with the person I love. The festive season is all about spending time with the people  that mean the world to you, whether it be friends, family, or that special someone.

It’s a time for just being together and focusing on the love that you have in your life, and I guess I’ve not really been doing that lately. I’ve been letting other things get on top of me and it’s time for that to stop. I have so many amazing people in my life and they deserve a happy Chrisselle.

I can’t thank the people I have in my life enough for how much love and support they show me.  No matter what they’ve stood by me and been there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. They mean the world to me and it’s time that they were the focus of my life instead of the bad things.

What I’m going to do over the nest few days is post blogs that are actually letters to the people who mean the world to me. They deserve to know how much they mean to me. So today? Today this letter is for the one person who is my absolute everything, they know who they are.

Sweetie, I don’t think there will ever be a point where you know just how much you mean to me. You’re my world and you make everything safe. Knowing that I can come to you when I’m upset and you’ll reassure me that life is going to be good makes me happier than you could ever imagine, heck, you make me happier than you could ever imagine.

I can’t put into words just how much I love you. It’s like, when I think of the intensity of my love for you, everything else seems so small, even the biggest things that upset me seem so little in comparison to the absolute, blissful happiness you give me.

Please never think that you’re nothing, because you’re everything. You’re so incredible and you don’t even realise it. We have so many amazing memories, and I can’t wait to make more with you.

I miss you, so much when we aren’t together. I miss your smile, the feel of your hand in mine, the touch of your lips on my lips. I miss how we just randomly giggle at the silliest things. I miss snuggling up just before we fall asleep and talking about nothing in particular, or just laying there staring at the ceiling with your arms around me and my head on your chest. I miss cuddling up in the cold and you kissing my forehead. I miss how when you leave the room for even just two minutes, when you come back you sneak up behind me and wrap your arms around me whilst leaving a gentle kiss on my neck. I miss you.

I could list the reasons I love you, but I would be here for days listing new thing after new thing. You amaze me, literally. You’re so much more talented than you give yourself credit for. You’re so smart and clever. And you don’t even realise just how many people love you.

You’re my world, never, ever forget that I love you. Because this isn’t just forever and always, it’s infinity.

All my love, Chrisselle. ♥

So yeah, this begins the week of letters. I don’t know how many people will read these, and it doesn’t really matter. As long as the person it’s for reads it. Because every person that gets one of these should know that they mean the world to me. And I never want to lose any of you.

Much love and many thanks for reading.